Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I'm Baaaaccccckkkkk!!!!

Another one of my long time and great blog friends turned Facebook friend who I chat or touch base with on a daily basis, wrote after my status update..."Our Marlene is "Back"." I would like to agree with that statement and for the most part, I am...just in a different way.

I realized today that it has almost been one year since the End of the Great Depression...the death of a relationship that was just unhealthy for me in so many ways. In ways I, myself, could not even acknowledge. I can look back and see that now. It is true, hindsight is 20/20. Change is good even if we want to run and hide in the other direction, escaping its grasp. We get stuck in the mire and muck of life, we become complacent and comfortable. I never want to be that person again. I was a blob drudging through life, not really living. A part of me was dead.

Not any more.

Today, I grasp living and appreciate it. I love it with every breath I take. I enjoy and relish in the hustle bustle, but I can also endear myself deeply to a late evening walk and a peaceful dinner with my love. Living in Olde Towne affords us the opportunity to walk the quaint, cobble stoned streets with the lamp lights fluttering. We can smell the salt air and feel the gentle breeze off the riverfront. A boat horn sounds in the distance. We stop at our favorite restaurant for a respite. We laugh at our own nonsense...honestly enjoying each others company.

My creative endeavors also reflect this changed spirit. I am delving deep into marketing my talents and have now procured a retail store who wants to showcase my abilities. I am really excited about this pathway I am on.

I have to remind myself to slow down and enjoy this process. There are so many wonderfully blessed things happening right now. I am realizing through strength of character and my conviction that good things can happen.

I will be able to share pictures of what's going on soon, but you must be patient. Remember there is a process. I have to take baby steps, but I will share with you some words.

The cutest wine totes EVER, a wine and cheese store, cupcakes and cookies, food, food, food, and all of it's the best. Top of the Line...because that's how this classy girl rolls.

I know life ebbs and tides. I get that. I can roll with the punches and move through the hard times. I am stronger now than I ever knew I could be. I have been through so much, but am able to traverse to the other side. I am able to look past the bull shit.

I have often told people...I have some street sense, I am book smart, but I was completely emotionally retarded. I knew that when I got all three components to where they needed to be, it would be time for the world to watch out.

That time is quickly approaching..."By George, I think she's got it". I'm ready. Let's get this party started.

This IS home Girl and "I'm Back".

4 comments:

Mental P Mama said...

Welcome home!!!!!

April said...

And we're glad to have you back, too! :)

TSannie said...

Good!

Stickhorsecowgirls said...

You are preachin' to the choir here in so many ways...you sound GREAT! C